Wtfff? What’s wrong with the world, momma? 

Why is everything getting all fucked up especially now that i’ve decided to change for the better, to be a good girl now. I’ve already turned my back against my vices. But then why are my grades not turning out the way I wanted when I study my lessons naman? FML

Also, next month is the love month. Here I am, loveless still. It doesn’t matter actually, coz my single friends and i are planning some getaway. But that’s not the thing. Just the other night, I got myself deep in thoughts. Well, thoughts about Kerubin. I realized, this longing is getting nonsense. It’s not beneficial. And so, I’m now trying myself to forget him, detach from him inch by inch. Haay… BYE OBSESSION!!! This is really is it is it. Yun nga lang, bye sa mga pinangarap ko for us. Let go-an na talaga (as if my something). I mean, ayoko nang bantayan maya’t maya yung sched mo, tas aabangan kita, makita ka lang tas kilig onti. NAKAKAPAGOD.

Also, I’ve realized that I’m the type of person na “pang-forever”. I’m not interested into flings and landian. Ayokong ganun ung image ko. Before, my standards are based on him. But then, I know not a thing at all about him. SO, I bulleted in my head what factors to consider. As much as possible, I want ust to be the first and last of each other. It may sound—i dunno how it may sound to you, but that’s what I want. Also, a virgin. I mean, I, myself, too is one (okay, ibulgar). I just can’t forget what my Valued Ed. teacher told us before when we’re tackling about chastity, that no unvirgin bride is ever worthy of wearing white gown during her wedding because white, as we all know symbolizes purity. Also, di naman for being pavirgin much, parang ang dumi kasi ng image mo, pag sobrang experienced ka na. Just come to think of it. If I were a boy, I’d love to marry a virgin. So yeah, im against PMS. 

I just hope for all these, I won’t be forever alone…

GAH, I’m just so effin confused and tired and—shiz, cant find the words. Fuck my life. Prelims next week, then chill for the ending of Quadri celebration. Can I just explode?

Fuck it. I want to teleport somewhere right now..

Slumberland, maybe, is the place to be. GOODNIGHT!♥